I went to dinner and a trip down Christmas Tree Lane in our town last might with Gio and Mom. A wonderful evening, but the one thing that is still so present in my world is something that came up in a conversation with Gio at dinner. I cannot recall the exact situation or source of the visit, but out of the blue he told me and Mom that some people had told him that when they look in to his eyes, they can see the whole world. It took me back 5 years in a flash of time, to us having a talk about his eyes when he first came to the world and as he was growing in his first year. Those dark, almost black eyes seemed to reach beyond the normal human realm, to provide a path of seeing beyond our limited resources. And here I sat, with this young boy a few years later with him reminding me that we have no limitations on what we can see, if we can find the way to release our barriers and learned definitions. He still doesn’t have or hasn’t accepted what we beings seem to see, hear and accept as the world.
I have recently began, well honestly the journey began decades ago, but I have always seemed to have a difficult time staying on the path. But, of late, I have been drawn to Buddhist teachings, writings and presentations. It feels for me, like an extension of my understanding of needing to keep moving with my shift in how I live. It is not my place for certain to use this as a place to try and explain anything in detail or believe my path is right for anyone, but this simple principle of the way we live, the way we treat others, the way we look and create definitions of others and how we allow our learned ego and attachments to direct our lives feels like what the children and those who do remain connected to their real SELF know. That it is all from within and we live what we are and what we get back what we put forth. Is it simple to get this back? Of course not, I am a walking example of just how difficult it is to BE in this space and not just talk about the space and how well I am doing. Living and walking the knowing, not just talking and acting like it is here. Our actions, our interactions and our treatment with others is where this becomes defined and creates the energy and reality of our world.
Our path is the same as Gio explaining what the people said. He wasn’t thinking it was something special, just something interesting. Not any attachment to him being better than anyone else, more special or doing something that no one else could do. It was just him telling us about an experience he had and we could do whatever we wished with the bit of information. It is the same with how we are with other beings. Be accepting of everyone for who and what they are. Know that we are all searching for the same thing in life; HAPPINESS & JOY. Nothing more, even though we humans, especially in the developed world seem to have a need to attach tangible and visible definitions to how that is defined. A more expensive car than the others, living in a better neighborhood, having a better job and job title, going to a better school, the brand of our clothing and who we hang out with. But, we all know that these are easily gained and easily lost. True happiness and joy are found inside our SELF and it is this that we all yearn for. How many people do we all know who have at some level, achieved the definitions of success and happiness listed above and then watched them plunk down $2500 for a retreat teaching them how to get away from the stresses of the exact actions they lived to get these things of happiness? Many in my experience.
So as we go forward, let us look in our own eyes, inside and find what it is that we know to be our SELF. Work towards finding a definition of our own purpose, meaning and desires as we live. What brings us happiness? Listen to our inner voice, we will hear the truth from within. It may not be what we want to hear, but it will be the truth. I would bet most, if not all of us would hear that our happiest moments have nothing to do with things, but to do with a feeling of compassion, connection and gratitude from and with other beings. Holding a child or loved one. Watching another excel at some project or endeavor. If we can find a path of just being quiet and allowing ourselves to at the very least listen to our own inner voices. The truth is there and then we have the chance and direction to decide if we wish to release our attachments and take a different path at a crossroad in life.
I, at this late stage of my life and having learned and absorbed and accepted the teachings of what I felt and defined as reality, know it is the toughest assignment I have ever undertaken. But as I travel the path and watch the differences in outcomes, relationships, interactions with others and my own comfort with life unfold, I know there is an opening in my world to begin heading back closer to where Gio lives and where I know my place is to live. Love and joy. Respect for others and releasing my believing I have the answers from what I learned. They come from what I have had and known my entire life, but I slowly boxed them in and decided to burden myself with all of the clutter we place on our worlds. I choose to spend a lot more time in Gio’s world of infinite wonders and gifts.