Imagination & Trust
I have been breathing in the air of this planet for over 6 decades now and during the last few years, I have begun to see many of my paths and choices were based upon ego, selfishness, greed and lack of concern or respect for others. I found it wasn’t that difficult to justify anything and everything because I was getting ahead, doing what I had been taught was the measure of success and reaching my goals, or so I thought. Where I sit today, with most all of the tangible things gone, with many of the non-tangible things gone and searching hard for the answer to WHAT HAPPENED?
Enter a soul that is new and truly connected to the REAL reason for living. Loving, feeling loved, feeling cared for and protected, seeing nothing but joy and happiness in everything and everyone. Smiling, just because smiling feels good, not needing to have something to make us smile. Crying and frowning comes with physical pain, not emotional pain, because the brain or mind hasn’t been trained yet to see anything bad in the world. And the eyes! Deep and full of wonder and imagination and trust of it all. Not a word needs to be spoken, which we adults don’t realize is taking place those first years. There is nothing missed because you cannot speak or talk with the child, both just know. This is all real and happens with every child that enters the world and with every child/adult relationship, especially the parents. This way of living just is. We don’t need someone to tell us what to do, we don’t need a book to show us how to feel when we hold the child and touch deeper than the skin. It all just is there and it is unlimited. There is no end to the love. There is no end to the joy. There is no end to the day. It all just is part of life and life is eternal.
For me, this revisiting of what life can be came in the form of GIO. When I gaze at this image, I see his eyes and smile and being all glowing, I can see him just being GIO. He isn’t looking for anything or disconnected for the moment or space. He is present, happy with everything and not concerned about anything. We lose this way of being, far too early in life and in many cases never realize it has gone from our world or desire to reach back and reconnect with that source of pure joy and happiness. I personally have piled so much debris, judgment, ego, attachment and separation on to my being or self, that I am realizing the shift back to the pure connection with my own self, is a very tough path and task. This is what we do and for many, this is OK and it is the right way, but for me, NOT. I began looking back and talking about searching for a deeper meaning of my own life, but now I realize that was also the ego just finding the place of being cool when this became popular. It allowed me to keep feeling I was special and people were interested in me. But, until recently, even that path was a cover for doubting and being fearful of what I might have to face if I really stepped in to being what Gio is.
That is what this journey of writing whatever comes to mind on this monitor is for me. Whatever is happening in my world. Being open with myself through the words on the page and using this as a means of showing myself and Gio and maybe others, there is a way to live a full and joyful life. That we can choose to live differently than we have. That we were connected to our true Self when we entered this world and it is still there for us, if we wish to return. We can have all we wish or desire, no limits. Pure Love for self and life and others, along with a pure joy and happiness known only from living in that connected place. Nothing says you aren’t supposed to be wealthy, successful, or prosperous, it just is how we do it and why we do it. Facing these realities is a large part of the shift or path of change, but I also am aware releasing and peeling off the layers of old and standing naked in self, is the toughest thing I will ever or have ever taken on.
Let us change ourselves and the world. And I pray that I am a positive and meaningful part of Gio growing and finding the path he chooses, not one that is chosen for him. I hope Gio, through the Unconditional love and support of others in his life, is able to hold his connection with God and the inner self or at least be aware of the shift away and loss of, so many of us miss. I pray that we all are a positive and a meaningful part of everyone’s life and time on this planet, maybe beyond.